37 weeks and 2 days into the pregnancy--thought fragments:
- On paper, I have 11 days of work left. ELEVEN days--that's not a lot of time, and I have plenty to keep me occupied until the end of the month, but I am really struggling to stay focused and compartmentalize all of my thoughts about the baby in order to crank out the products I need to produce in the time I've been given. If only I were paid to take naps and nest...
- Our trip to the doctor's office today managed to ease some of the deep, psychological resistance I've felt in terms of actually thinking about the process of bringing another life into the world. Don't get me wrong, I still haven't really allowed myself to think about it. Instead, I just focus on the outcome: we'll have a baby in 22 days or less:
- Jon is a saint. Really. One example of saintly behavior: his sacrifice of decompression time over his fall break in order to study ahead for his classes, pick up last-minute baby items, install baby items, prepare his presentation for the upcoming symposium, etc. I don't know how single parents do it.
- Pregnancy has really stirred my compassion toward people with overactive bladder...
- I've developed a most sincere appreciation for cheese cake. And by that I mean that sometimes I feel like I would back over someone with our car in order to satisfy a craving for it.
- On an emotional level, if I were being completely honest, I would admit that the idea of being charged with shaping and influencing another little life is overwhelming. The idea of making mistakes as a parent, combined with the pregnancy hormones, has made for some pretty interesting emotional situations whereby I dissolve into tears and Jon reassures me that a) God is taking care of our family, b) children are physically resilient and don't require four different types of helmets.
- On a physical level, if I were being completely honest, I would admit that I love the fact that I get to carry our son around 24/7. I love the gentle reactions people have toward him/my giant belly--it's like it can diffuse even the most tense situations. It's great. Then, I would admit that sleeping is becoming more of a challenge, and that he is starting to feel very heavy, and that I am starting to feel very heavy, and that I cannot wait to hold him in my arms (or in the sweet Moby wrap--thanks Jer and Kel!), as opposed to my belly.
- I'm pretty sure that aqua moms (aqua aerobics class for pregnant ladies--fitting name, right?) has saved my back from much achiness throughout the pregnancy. It's been so nice to feel weightless a few times a week and hang out with other expectant moms--very encouraging.
19 days left until you're scheduled to make your entrance, little man! In spite of this stream of consciousness post, please know that we're so excited to meet you!
37 weeks and 2 days into the pregnancy--thought fragments: 
6 comments:
You are going to be a great mom. Everything that you are feeling is as normal as it comes. Jon is correct, God has total control on your family.
So excited and very soon David will be an out of body experience. :-)
Anytime little man, anytime.
Love, Grammy
Lovely Jenn,
It is precious to me to read your about-to-be-a-mommy thoughts... and they will be even more precious to you in years to come when you can hardly remember what it was like to not have kids - and then you'll be able to look back on this and remember with that feeling of "ah yes. look how far we have come. look how good God has been."
I am SO excited to read/hear about David's arrival. Know that the same brilliant God who creates babies in your inmost being, who shapes hearts and kidneys and forms skin and umbilical cords... that same God who started the process and has continued the process... ALSO knows how to finish the process. David is hard-wired to know how to be born, and your BODY knows what to do. Even if your head doesn't. It will go into labor all on its own, without your needing to exert one bit of mental energy towards it. God knows how to get 'em in there, and he knows how to get 'em out. I will be praying for you as you go through the process - soon you will be a woman with her own labor story! You're going to do great, and be great parents. God, in his eternal wisdom, ordained you and John to be David's parents - and He always equips His people for the things He's called them to :-)
I stand with the throngs of those who love you and eagerly await your news....
Jenn, I too loved hearing your thoughts on motherhood and baby. Super fun to get a glimpse into your brain these last few weeks as you are on the brink of completely changing your life. I think you're gonna be a great mom!
jenn! don't worry too much about the delivery! i'm sure it'll go perfectly! and really, after he is born, you won't really remember it all too much!
I love your blog post, Jenn! I can really relate to what you are feeling--I felt a lot of the same things before having Wyatt. Thank goodness babies do turn out to be resilient little stinkers. And being a parent is a scary, wonderful and fun responsibility--you and Jon are going to be pros at it!! Enjoy the ride as much as you can! (I think that's the Pampers tag line that I just quoted.)
Margie
Thanks for the encouragement, ladies! I'm so thankful for each of you!
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